there’s a whole dilema around this subject in my life…
i continually find myself overthinking you
and wishing and creating this fantasy in my mind
where you miss me as much as i do.
and i don’t know if it’s my ego but
i can almost feel it is that way
because our love is something special
because i know it still exist.
not sure if it’s something beyond this shitty life
or just something that leaved a deep mark in me
and probably marked you as well
i don’t know if you regret any of this
because i definetly not.
i just regret that i can’t get over it
maybe because you were my great true love
and mistakes hurt real deep
I kinda feel i’m not just another girl in your life
and you still love me, and miss me, and carry me inside your heart
but i’m affraid that’s where my wild fantasy take it’s part…
i just wish i could comunicate with you
i wish you tell me the truth about your feelings
i wish i could finally close the chapter in my life
or take it back if it is something real…
and then i remember all the crap that separated us
and how low i fell, and how bad i was
and that person that keeps doing things that hurt or annoy me
and i end up being terribly confused between love and hate
between missing and regret
between i want you back and i wish i could erase you from my brain
and my thoghts, and memories, and whom i have become…
the truth is you were part of my life, and changed me…
so you are part of me as well, and i can’t go back
so you will be always there… FUCKING ALWAYS :ยด(
